there're a few frustrations i've got to let go. but i'm not very pissed. right now. sheesh, whatever. it's pissing how we've come so far as a team and yet people are still not comittted..if you're not in for the game what the shit are you hanging around for? it's a game, sure..but if you don't care about how the team fares how far we go we won't play it right. i don't forget those days last year when we were like so bloody hopeless..a few ppl trying to train ourselves with no proper guiding..nothing at all. that time we were on our own. what we did no one cared. it hurt then knowing no one cares how we were doing. now, we've got a decent system going. yet ppl's still not into it. even during the season. which is happening in a couple of weeks. screw common test. this is our only chance to prove our worth. we ain't done anything yet. we've not won. we've yet to fight our fight. so pls, for our own sake, for the times we spent together trying to figure out how to play the game, times when we were alone that i'd never forget, pls show some courage, show some enthusiasm in the team. believe in ourselves and don't care what people say. i think what's more important is how we see ourselves. that's the key. the most important thing is how we do as a team.

today's a special day.
haha...

hey today was supposed to be the day i do most of my studying.. but i don't know how i managed to do so little in so much time. haha. think i've more or less given up on ct1 already. damn sian. it's hard reading things i've never looked at before in my life..how to understand things i've never even seen before.. hmm maybe that's what lectures are for.. but one must realise it's a tough job listening to boring teachers in lecture. ok next time i'll try to pay attention to mundane and boring lullabies in artic conditions during lecture. argh, that's hard. that's life.

it's crazy training tomorrow again. think we're all getting a little tired. time to train our mental strength. anyhow got to push myself a little more to train my fitness. come on!

ok maybe ishouldn't spend so much time around here. but i'm really too sian to study..sigh. getting my haircut tomorrow..hope it'll be fine. haha.

oww. aching like siao everywhere.. esp the arms hard to stretch.. painful still got training tmr..and friday..and saturday.. bye common test.. wtf how can expect em to study like that..with bball on my mind.. it's gonna be crazy. thought coach would give us a break but yeah..not that i really mind cuz right now from what we've been doing, we've got some way to go.. really wanna put up a good fight come April 3.. who knows how far we can go...

right now it's just like how many subjects would i drop for common test 1.. for now it's bio.. and counting.. phy could be next if time does not permit..aiyah physics still got next thurs to go.. don't exactly expect great grades for this ct.. ha. i'll do what i can..

bball camp. it was a tiring 3 days. and fun as well! was over before i knew it. really. had that sensation. but it was taxing on the body, and mind. what with tempers flying on mon's training.. the atmoshere was not so good. 4 games. with varying levels of performance..think if we believe in ourselves, we can do much..like in the last game against the ri boys. anyway the game vs the mpcc got to be the worst agme i've been involved in..at least we picked ourselves up from there.. also, enjoyed the game against the ri old boys.. quite fun. camp was great, wish it were longer..haha. so many trainings this week. great. it's time to increase the intensity anyway. which means i've got to go run more..yep. aw aching like crazy..